You keep a brick at its place, and you stare at it. You stare at it long enough for it to lose its identity for you, for it to simply become a mass of nothing,
kept on nothing,
In that moment, you almost want to smash the whole wall down; the wall that took you days to erect, the wall that made you feel proud of yourself each time you walked by, the wall that made you feel like yourself for the first time in years- that wall suddenly begins to mean nothing for you… and you… you want to tear it down!
Just like you tore yourself down,
when the storm approached;
the storm that you thought you won’t be able to take,
or, was it for the shame that the possible failure could have brought along?
you tore yourself down before you could have tried,
you refused to fight because somehow you thought loath tastes sweeter than defeat;
you never gave yourself a chance.
This time around, don’t back away,
give yourself a chance;
don’t tear the wall down!