I have never fully introduced myself on this blog. Why? I thought secrecy kept me safe from the judgement, trolling, vulnerability, & everything else in between.
Spoiler Alert: It doesn’t.
Well, maybe in the beginning it does, but eventually, and especially after you truly become vulnerable hiding behind the ruse of anonymity, you spend day and night fearing if someone you knew was reading and could tell that it was you.
It’s only after you grow up a little and experience a little life that you understand how all of us are very very naked. And that secrecy is a wall made of fear.
So, here I am, introducing myself once and for all, and bringing my digital footprint together.
I am Gauri Walecha, an entrepreneur, startup incubator, and writer. I laid the foundation of my career at just the age of 15, interestingly, with this blog. Today I hold a portfolio with the experience of working 100+ brands in various digital marketing capacities and incubating 20+ brands. The journey has been nothing less than magical. But then again, I may have not have lived it to the fullest because of- fear.
When I started this blog, I was a depressed teenager. A young person who had absolutely given up on life. This blog became the window that brought fresh air inside the cold dark room my mind had become. And eventually, it also became the key that opened the door to my career.
A part of me is still living in the same dark room. There are times I still have panic attacks, anxiety attacks, and sleepless nights. But thankfully, I have found that the way out isn’t too difficult to find.
It is funny how the blog that gave me the courage to make all these changes has become the very thing that I am afraid of pursuing today.
Every time I open this website to write my heart out, I end up chickening out thinking of the thousand ways in which I suck at writing now.
Maybe I do. Maybe I don’t.
All I know is that to this day, when a sleepless night visits me unannounced, the only thing that brings me comfort is the empty ‘post’ tab at WordPress.
So I keep trying to come back, restarting my journey again and again.
I don’t want to do this to have a personal brand.
I don’t want to do this in hopes of going viral.
I want to do this because I have friends here. Kind people who follow me. Who leave the sweetest comments under my post and make me believe in the world again.
I want to do this because here, it feels like home. I like my home.
I guess I will just hit ‘publish’ now.